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Place your hand deep upon me.

Let me fall past the notions of the world I know. Past it all.
Past this skin, this fence of latch and paints and wooden saints,
into darkness thick with hope, for something there to hold,
to truly know.

That you are with me
To know and feel and kiss me
When I’m about to lose myself, my life.

Through this wild darkness
You pull me home, regardless,
Safe within the ever-light, your life.

Let me fall past the notions of the world I know. Past it all.
Past this soul. Where wordless senses start, let me reach out
beyond the help of God, with no belief to hold,
just this love I know.

For you are with me
To know and cheer and kiss me
Like a second singing soul, like life.

Through this wild darkness
You pull me home, regardless,
In each day, each hour of my life.

Place your hand deep upon me.
Reach me where only you will know.
Only you will know how to find me.
To pull me home.

Please, pull me home.

©1981, 2001, 2011 Tobin Mueller

This is me singing and playing into a 2-track recorder set up in my NYC West Village apartment living room. I am playing a Korg keyboard using a modified nylon string guitar patch. It's the oldest recording in this collection (January 2001) of a song initially written in 1981, although the lyrics were revised subsequently several times and a new bridge was incorporated in 2000.

I wrote this song at about 2 am one morning. My wife came out to the living room, highly annoyed that I was making so much noise in the middle of the night. I asked her to sit and listen... and she wasn't annoyed any more.

I have changed the lyrics, slightly, several times through the years. I've arranged it for additional instruments, had other players add in, played it in a jazz style... but I keep returning to this solo ballad version recorded years ago. It reminds me of the moment it first came to me back in 1981 and all the things that have happened to me since.

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